“I feel like this is the best way I can explain shit.”

Lil Ugly Mane has put out a new album called volume 1: flick your tongue against your teeth and describe the present under the moniker Bedwetter.

The album seems to be a response to a negative experience the Virginia rapper had while seeking treatment for mental health issues.

On Facebook, he posted a statement (which he’s referred to as a “polemic Yelp review of [the] American healthcare system”), he illustrated how his search for treatment was handled:

“After three months of sleeplessly, anxiously glaring into the eyes of an old monster that suddenly grew a new head… After continuous unsuccessful attempts for months to contact psychiatrists and doctors, I reluctantly checked into the hospital today. I thought maybe I could get a much needed psych evaluation and hopefully receive some sort of treatment, perhaps even simply a referral and/or an appointment to go see somebody else who could provide that.

“After six hours of constantly reassuring myself I was doing the right thing, I was finally seen… Two skittish nurses and some community college educated social worker baby-talked their questions to me as a lurching police officer glared at me disgustedly over their shoulders. I’d chosen to go in at a time where I was feeling okay so i would be fully able to articulate and describe the symptoms I was experiencing so I could potentially receive the most accurate treatment. I thought that made the most sense.”

After answering questions and explaining that he was not suicidal or in danger of hurting anyone else – “to be honest, the fact that I voluntarily came in here could be seen as an indication that I’m absolutely exhausted and desperate to stop hurting myself and everyone else by not confronting this shit for so long” – he was discharged.

He writes: “Our current mental healthcare system is absolute shit. Absolute shit that absolutely incentivizes violence and self harm by categorizing it as the sole interpretation of ‘severity” worth treating. By making the idea of treatment feel so utterly hopeless to people who already exist and drown in their hopelessness.

“This system has a very real potential to turn people who voluntarily seek help, people who aren’t yet completely overtaken by their illness, into violent suicidal monsters because you are dangling their own treatment on a string in front of them, scoffing at their pitiful attempt at recovery and demanding they need to do more.”

Read the full statement below.



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